N Monday, January 31, 2005
utterly ...
town on sat to shop for two person presents. bot quite a retarded stuff becus me and jiang has totally diff taste when it comes to this. had a hard time tryg to find one purfect one so i just went along with jiang. walked ard, shopped ard. went bck tp to poke ball and shayna, eeching came and join us. had fun taking fotos with shayna ! it just got my mood better after hearing certain stuff..
to you, it may not have any diff.
but to me, obviously there is.
i wud have kept thinkg abt it bt it wudnt lead me to havg a spoil mood for the rest of the trip.
maybe i wud have just kept sayg "i wanna meet" or so.
you think. but thats what you think.
its you, but its not me.
i wish to get out too.
but its not up to me.
im not you. i cnt just give up when i say give up.
its not some kind of thing i cn control?
why dunt you teach me since ure so gud at this..
its some kind of nature thing to me that its just comes and only time will erase everything.
so what if its Os?
dunt you have this kinda thing before?
i dint mean to ask u to put someone at the end of town and all..
what i meant was, put urself in my shoes.
what if ure the one who have someone in mind and im the only one who knws that hes in town and i kept it to myself all along till the end of the day?
huw wud u fucking feel?
and you still can smile and tell me that.
if you wanna keep it to urself. just shut up abt it.
why bother tellg only at the end of the day..
bleahh.
im not tryg to say anything.
but since u mentioned it, i tink i have a say in it.
oh whatever, shant bother.
went to study with joan, mj and jiang yst at macs. hehs. pretty alrights. had fun too. had dinner then joan left. then we went back macs for awhile before meetg cher and eugene to poke ball. yupps. aftwhich we stayed on and chat for alil while before heading home.
im sorry joan ! for not appearing at the bball match to give you guys support.
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